Weird.. Not really weird. Dream (sigh)

So it has been like forever I had f*ckin-five-dream-in-a-5-day...
Or oh-so-called-whatever...

I had a couple of dreams for about 5 days about the guy I like *cough*
Pause on monday.
It had started from Thursday, which it was the day I had no news about him.
Thursday,
Friday,
Saturday,
-stop on Monday- (read; there was no dream about him)
Monday. (last night)

AND IT'S ALL ABOUT HIM!!

I think I'm crazy over him.
And now you can kill me ~____~

When...

That feeling when you want to sneeze, but you can't....
That feeling when you sneeze...
That sexy faces you made when you sneeze...

Ok, stop.

Truth is,
Seems like my income is less than my expenses.
I'm going to manage my income and expenses.

Geez...

Purple

Purple is my lil sister's fave color.
I've changed my twitter theme, blog theme into purple.
All purple..

Idk what's wrong with me.
What's happening.
I sometimes don't understand myself.

Lots of work and that makes me crazy.
There is also someone makes me become more crazy.
Idk what to do.

I'm not going to be an attention whore to that "someone".
If he really love me, he'll remember me..
That feeling.. It's killing me....

Ok, I'm totally OOT right now.
Pardon me.......
LMAO, this is my blog...... sigh~

Aeroacrophobia.

I've state that I'm Aeroacrophobia on this post.

I won't stand near the ...
No no no..
Even just stare my friend standing on a high place or whoever,
I feel like my body is being slice with a sharp knife.

Oh God..
No kidding.
I'm Aeroacrophobia.
Fear of being on a high places..

I guess I'm going to pour all inside my heart (cough)

Since this is my personal blog, and he(my blog) is the only place I can pour all inside my heart and will listen to all the trash I've been keep for such a long time (cough) silently... ahahaha... douchebag.

So there is this guy. First time I met him, I feel nothing. Just a thought like "oh, I thought this place will only have some old people. I have hope, a good looking guy." just it.

I heard he has a girlfriend. Well, he's good looking though. End of story.

Time goes by... We become closer. No feeling, just friend. He's quite a humorist type. And everything he do will always make us laugh.

December for me was such a magic month. IDK what happened, I heard he broke up with his gf, and he became closer to me and the way he act toward me has made my heart melt. I like this type of guy!

We text every night. He text me first of course. I'm not going to become a whore to get his attention (read; grass searching for a horse). He did it first and then I text him back.. One night I fell asleep, and can't reply his message. He woke me up afterward (on 4 AM, sigh), calling me and my cell phone was near my head. I set the phone to "vibrate". It was like an earthquake when he call me. I answered his phone and ask what happened?

"I can't sleep"
"Why? It's 4 in the morning."
"You didn't reply my message."
"Wait, what? You didn't sleep this whole night?"
"Yes.."
"Hey, sorry.."
"It's okay. Sorry for disturbing you. I'm going to sleep. Talk to you later."
beep beep...

Thanks to you. I can't continue my sleep.

blah blah blah
There were 3-4 guys ask me out (read; be their girlfriend)
The 1st guy was my crush when I was on Middle School.
The 2nd guy was my ex. Also my elementary school class-mate.
The 3rd guy was a guy I knew on facebook.
The 4th guy Idk who the hell is he.

And none of them was "him".
I actually kinda hope it was him.

He truly drives me crazy up til now.
To make it short, he's a "freedom-type-of-guy"
I read somewhere, telling me that what to do and what to not do.

1. Do NOT call them first until he has done it like minimal 100times.
2. He's allergic to pretty women. (oh gosh)
3. He's fast to get boring. So he'll surely move on. (This is what I scared the most)

How if I fall for a wrong guy(him), and he decided to "leave me" and... (sigh)
God, if we meant to be together, I'll give all my problem to your hand and our relationship.
We even haven't date yet (sigh) But the way he treat me (like when we chatting together) is like I'm his girlfriend.